2017

8 days to 2018. 2017 was a weird year because I was somehow living my best life and worst life at the same time. There are memories that I wish I could keep it deep down in my heart, which I dont wanna think back because everytime when I think of it, it was hurt, it hurt because the person that who create this memories with me are no longer there for me. and yeah, you just gotta accept the fact. I do believe that time will heal a person, just see how long it took to heal. It is not easy to let go something you think it could be forever with you, but it just simply dont work out. From the day you left me, I went thru the struggle my own, I cried for months, the pain is undescribeable. You are the first one who I think of when i wake up and before I sleep. There are times that I dream of you, I wake up in the midnight just to check your text, keep my phone on so that I wont misses your call. Yeah, we did contact for almost every weekend,at least a text. But.... 23DEC 2017 Is it an ending??? official ending??? I get a replied from you which is who is this???? Do you know how blank I am for that moment??? I been staying so strong for my own for past few weeks , yea sometimes I will feel down when the memories flashback. I started to cry again after not crying for weeks..... I know I shouldnt wasting my time on crying, but I just feel hurt. I do really cherrish the moment we had spent together. 8days to 2018. The worst pain comes when you dont know whether to wait or forget. If i could make a wish, I do really hope that you will become a guy who can think maturely, know what you should and shouldnt do to hurt a girl. Well, you never think that the last time is the last time. You think there will be more. You think you have forever....but you dont. Sorry for not able to be the best partner to you, but do you think we could work out if there are another chance for us. A question remains unanswered. Merry Christmas to you !!!!!!!!!! 2017 love.